teenage oh teenage

I'm a teenager.
I know this feelings are normal as a teenager.
but I just so sick about all of this stuffs.

I thought I was happy.
nice friends, cute and sweet bf, wonderful doggies.
then I realized that I am completely alone.
it was so suck, so I was like "errgh, seriously, I need someone!"
but no one was there.
then I thought I was sad.

but then I realized, that was just my stupid thought.
I have my own bf who loves me, my friends, my dogs.
then I was fine.
then I thought I was happy.

then I thought I was sad.

then I thought I was happy. again.

then I thought I was sad. again.

it happens all the time, you know?

I'm so tired to be a teenager.
when will I grow up?